Word World

I had this thought the other night. That's how it starts, isn't it? With a thought and before you know it, you're deep inside a world that makes no sense but in the retrospect defines you. In a similar pattern like every other night, I put my phone aside in a futile attempt to put my brain to rest and go to sleep. I've ran out of ways to knock myself out. Somedays I call myself a selenophile just to stay relevant and sane to myself and my thoughts. What I fail to realize is it's just another fancy word to fool myself the way drugs fool the nervous system.  Since I couldn't bring myself to gather the patience for a good long sleep or maybe I had simply lost hopes, I sprung into thinking how I had nothing to think about and how everything that has ever existed is pointless. Come to think of it, it's quite an ambiguous thought but I'd rather blame every sleepless night for making me so naive to think about it. I clench the surprisingly hard pillow as I begi...

Be true to yourself. You cannot be truly satisfied with what energy you receive until and unless you are true to yourself to begin with. If you are angry, say it. If you are sad, say it. If you are disappointed, say it. Try to channel thoughts into simple words. And this isn't just restricted to negative emotions. This applies to everything that you feel or think. The longer you hold it inside, the more piled up it is gonna be. If you don't find someone to say anything to, see that's where the social network becomes useful. They aren't there for pretending to have a good life. Nor are they meant to influence your mind with what posts you see. Those posts don't define your life, you do. You cannot be true to the ones you love if you cannot be true to yourself. Moreover the first person whom you should love is yourself. Make yourself a priority. You won't be able to hold a grudge or hug anyone or abuse someone or love someone if you are not up and about. Take care...

Sometimes the problem is that you look at it as a problem. We, a normal person with a truckload of "problems", choose to perceive things the way it would hurt us rather than help us because believe it or not, it gets us attention. It isn't necessary as to what extent is your problem troublesome. Even the smallest of things such as you not being able to watch your favorite game is troublesome. We as humans entitle ourselves to getting attention but won't pay the same to others when its time to reciprocate. Right from the time we started to realize what stress is, we have been nurtured to either suppress it or use it to get attention. Never have I ever seen people actually dealing with it. Now this might just be one of the many aspects of stress relief. It is soothing to know that something as petty as just getting attention can help go through so much. It elevates the possibility of a person to bust out of his own mind caged by toxicity or thoughts provoking what might...

In between the moments where things happen, where we learn and grow, there are a million other moments which are breathtaking. Moments where it is just as you dreamt of, which are way beautiful than you imagined them to be, where the sky is lit, the perfect songs play randomly on shuffle and all you have to do is breathe. If you realize how beautiful a feeling this is you have already reached a point where everything and nothing matters to you at the same time. You take an effort to make others realize this feeling and care even less for someone or something who keep denying whatever you are trying to convey. Life is more about doing random things without the fear of missing out, making mistakes, learning and unlearning from them, getting angry, trying to not get angry the next time and growing a little each day in the process. Sometimes growth can be very small, so small that it seems negligible or absent. The truth happens to be that it never is nothing, it is always something....

A little experiment, although won’t help much through the lockdown where you have all the time in the world, but sure is interesting. All of us have plastic bottles at home which we were supposed to dispose of after use. Nonetheless, crush one of those bottles and throw it hard at something. Now pick it back up and do whatever the hell you can to make it go back to exactly the way it was before. Apologize, cry, pull it and put pressure on it or whatever is in your capabilities. Does it go back to being exactly the way it was before? This is one of the very classic examples. It is the same thing happening with almost everyone. Even the slightest of things are leaving a whole lot of marks on the minds and consciences of people, especially those in the teenage and 20s. And then on the other side of the world are the victims of rape and sexual abuse. Now, imagine the plight of a person in the age group mentioned earlier who is also a victim.  One of the very lesser known things in Indi...

Putting your happiness at stake momentarily to live life without further toxicity is not that tough a deal. Letting go is just as important as holding on. You can’t sit through a movie knowing it will end and you’re going to have to go attend to the other more important parts of your life. It is just about knowing the right time. “Mita diya uss sukoon ko jo teherna na jaanta tha, Aankhe kholne pe jo bacha bas vo andhera hi saath reh gaya” You struggle when you are dedicated to make something happen. You become desperate to have it. You give it all you have got and as it happens most of the time, you don’t get the result you were expecting. People come into your lives and build a rapport with you. You start to develop a habit of having them around and as it happens, they leave even when you thought they won’t. You prepare hard so that you get a good career. You get yourselves into everything that can possibly take you into your dream college. You try your best to make your p...

There is always room for improvement or development or corrections or rectifications. Irrespective of the material or entity it is in regards with. One thing life forces you to do is to be resilient to things you tend to love but fail to have which ultimately leads to disappointment and then regrets. It is not such that regrets are altogether a bad thing. As and when you have one, you tend to forget what it actually stood in your way for. Emotions guide your way through your life more than you yourself ever could. Regret is an agent of those emotions. A man can only so much be intact. But aren’t these things also the agents paving your way towards a better you? A person begins to resist another person who has a different opinion on things. We’d rather pretend to be fine with it instead of saying it out loud. Initially it is not important whether or not you are opinionated to a fact that has the potential to create so much as a spark. But it suddenly becomes important when the pers...